Why am i so frikin depressed ?

well its felt like for so ******* ever excuse my bad language but im sitting here listening to sad music and i keep saying wtf i mean i havent had a girlfriend (good one) never the only girls i wint out with where ugly as heck im going into highschool bro and im looking forward to dating but im still wondering is it girls the other thing is i hate my 8th grade freinds they were so stupid,lazy,and super nerdy on the contrary im not this way and i just rather hang by myself instaed of talking to them i didnt notice my mistake in friends until the end of the year when i started maturing i try hanging with the popular people but its to late now **** i hate this **** i sit in my house and do nothing but play card game and go outside and skate but nobody else skates with me so lonely so booooreeeedddd im not suicidal cause im not a ******* dome *** but i sure need some hope and need some help from god id be pleased as hell for anyone to help me i mean i almost got high with my couzin once but luckly they didnt have the stuff i mean thats how low i was :( i just need help please no stupid **** this is SERIOUS